Working with these girls, I want them to know that their love of the game can’t be dependent on what the coach thinks of them or their performance. Relationships with your teammates, that’s what makes the difference.
I fear that we’re forgetting why we fall in love with our sport in the first place. I went into coaching to share my love of the girls and the game. I prayed about having my leadership skills refined so that I would be able to share with people that their worth as a person doesn’t come from what happens on a softball diamond. It comes from the relationships they build.
I vividly remember my freshman year with the Badgers. I wanted to make everyone happy. I wanted everyone to be proud of me. That can be suffocating. A lot of people get stuck there. You need good people around you to help you get out of it. Luckily, I have a caring culture at UW and AIA and great teammates who have helped me through this. It’s so important to invest in the athlete holistically and not just in their athletic performance. You need to know that your coach still loves you and can celebrate the things about you that you bring to the table even when we lose. You need to know that they’re going to help you find a way to be better.
I’m still trying to figure out what I’m going to do with my life, but I think the coaching world needs more people who care about softball players as humans, not commodities.
I give coaches a lot of credit for all the hours and thought that they invest in their athletes. But I believe that too many of them view winning as the over-arching theme. It’s not. It’s about relationships. It’s about building up, not tearing down. When you have a relationship with those who you are coaching, they will run through a wall for you. Because they understand that the coach doesn't just care about me when I hit a homerun, but they also care about school, my family and my other interests.
Sometimes it’s something as simple as checking in to see how an athlete is doing. How they’re REALLY doing. That makes someone feel cared-for. How do I make sure my athletes feel cared about as a person and how will I make them feel empowered as a person with access to the resources that they might need?
It’s been hard for me to concentrate the last couple weeks. Not long after a fellow UW student-athlete took her own life, a softball player at James Madison did so as well. I didn’t know Sarah or Lauren personally, but their lives were so much more than their sports. They were daughters. They were best friends. They were teammates. They were role models. They offered this world so much.
But they were also in pain, and I truly get that. Being a student- athlete is hard. It is just so sad that some feel that is their only choice, they simply can’t handle it anymore. And some people never get a chance to see how loved they are or how much they are worth when sport dictates so much of their life.
I think we should use this moment to think long and hard about priorities and transparency. To think about the importance of self-care and of mental health for student-athletes.
We don’t need miracles. Just action.